Christianity’s Dirty Little Secret
The church in the West has a secret that is often exposed but no one talks about. The secret is this: We have a lot of people who are part of churches that are terribly wounded and broken, but act like they have it all together and are experts in Christianity.
To be fair, preachers, leaders, and bumper stickers tell us this all the time. They say things like Christianity isn’t for the perfect, it’s for the broken or the church is not for perfect people. But life in our churches gets lived out in such a way that at least some look like they have every aspect of their life together: marriage, kids, ministry, etc.
This became abundantly clear to me the further I moved away from Christianity as an event (Sunday morning service, prayer meeting, revival meetings) to Christianity as a lifestyle. The less we gave ourselves to meetings and the more we met in each others’ homes, dealt with each others’ children, and became transparent with each other, the more we began to see issues. It wasn’t that we were bad people, where we had come from we were thought of as the cream of the crop. In reality, it was that we had lived at such a distance from each other that our issues could hide beneath the surface and not have to get dealt with.
Why does this happen? I believe it’s a subtle mix of good intentions and fear. Many fear being outed for the things in their past and the things in their present. The fear of what others would think of us if they truly knew how bad things are keeps us from being honest about our situation. Others, I think, truly believe in some spiritual form of “fake it till you make it” and put up a clean front so they aren’t a bad testimony. They try and clean up the outside of the cup without cleaning the inside. This is a deception, but I know well meaning people who have attempted to do it.
If I don’t mention it, someone will write in and remind me about pride and hypocrisy. These are real, too, though I don’t think we start there. I think we start in some mix of fear or good intentions and then over years of acting, we develop pride and hypocrisy around the image we present to others. This last version of us is actually worse than the broken version of ourselves that we are so unwilling to show others, but we feel protected. As Jesus says, the last state of this person is worse than the first.
I say all of this as a Christian who has had dirty little secrets of my own. My intent is not to cast stones, but to say this: We are way more broken than we let on and it’s killing us. The unconfessed sin and double sided lives that we lead are letting issues fester within us in the dark, but they affect how we live life in the world and short circuit the life God desires us to have. Even if no one in our church knows, it’s still affecting the church.
The good news is there is an answer for this trap. It’s called living in the light. It’s a hard, sometimes painful process where we begin to live close enough to other believers that they can truly know us and we can truly know them. When we see issues in each others’ lives, we talk through them. We pray for each other. When we see issues in our own lives, we confess them to those believers living closely with us. This is the process Jesus gives us to be transformed:
But if we are living in the light, as God is in the light, then we have fellowship with each other, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, cleanses us from all sin. If we claim we have no sin, we are only fooling ourselves and not living in the truth. But if we confess our sins to him, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all wickedness.
This, friends, is the open secret…something so good and not hidden at all, yet few people know and practice: God wants us to come into the light with the real issues of our lives. When we bring our true selves into God’s light with other brothers and sisters, that’s where healing can occur. We can’t force others to go there, we can only go there ourselves and hope others come with us. As others see us learning to truly love and be honest about our own junk, they begin to believe it’s possible for themselves.
My hope is you are beginning to believe it is possible for you. Christianity needs it.
Our God is Jealous
You shall not worship them or serve them; for I, the Lord your God, am a jealous God…
-Exodus 20:5
One of the ways that God has consistently revealed Himself, especially throughout the Old Covenant is as a God who is jealous.
We don’t talk about God being jealous very often. I think if we were honest, most of us have tried to put jealousy behind us, seeing the damage it’s done to ourselves and others. In our experience jealousy is selfish. We’ve rarely met someone who is jealous and has our best interest at heart. God’s jealousy is different than ours. The jealousy of God is not unstable or unhinged. It’s a burning fire within God that causes Him to pursue the ultimate desires of His heart and the best for mankind.
When God created us, He designed us to have hearts that were totally in love with Him. We were designed to be in love God and only function properly when our hearts are focused on Him and everything else comes second. This is why when Jesus was asked what the greatest commandment was He easily replied that it was to “love the Lord Your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind,” (Matthew 22:37). But when sin entered mankind’s experience, we began to give our hearts on other loves.
Think about this for a moment: One of the places where jealousy is appropriate is when holy love is denied. As a husband, if my wife were ever to start to see another man, I would be filled with jealousy, and it would be right. The rightful love that was once mine was given to another. This is the kind of holy jealousy that fills God when He looks at His people. It’s an all consuming love that desires love to be fully shared between Him and His people.
Why is this important? In order to understand how God responds and why He does the things that He does, we need to understand God is a jealous God. He’s promised that He will yet again shake the Heavens and Earth so that everything that can be shaken, will be (Hebrews 12:26-27). The reality is, He’s constantly doing this throughout our lives and He will do this in a final way before the end of the age. If we don’t understand that these things come out of jealous love, we’ll be tempted to believe they come from anger.
Friends, we serve a God so committed to winning us back that He gave us His very Son. He’s loved us, laid down His life for us, and given us His Spirit. He’ll stop at nothing to bring forth the most love possible out of the human heart. His jealousy drives Him there. We don’t serve a God with weak love that doesn’t really care whether you walk away or not. His love burns deeply for you. We serve a jealous God.
Photo Credit: Amor Dei by Fr. Lawrence Lew, O.P.
Pride in House Churches
I had a friend text me a few days ago and ask me one of the most beautiful questions I’ve been asked in regards to house churches. Part of the question is quoted below:
I know what pride & arrogance looks like inside the traditional church. What does it look like outside the traditional church?
What’s so beautiful about this question is that it assumes pride exists and has dangerous implications within organic house churches. The reality is, it does*.
In fact, pride is probably a greater danger for those who have left the traditional church setting. The idea that we have a ____________ (fill in the blank, better, more biblical, more effective, etc.) model of being church can having a damaging effect on believers. Believers who meet in homes are certainly not the first in the body of Christ to struggle with this reality. I’ve certainly witnessed believers who are part of house churches turn on the churches they have left with the same kind of judgment that they feel they have received from traditional churches. The reality is you can be right about something in the Kingdom and it still damage your relationship with God.
But pride creeps in in other areas as well. Often house churches suffer from many of the same problems that the early churches in the New Testament suffered from (because they were house churches as well). John wrote to his co-worker Gaius about Diotrephes, who loved to be the leader, and because of this he refused to work with the apostles and traveling workers that the Lord was sending to the church (3 John 5-10). This love of being known as the leader is simply another form of pride that crops up among house churches, even among churches that profess not to have leaders.
The fact of the matter is pride is a condition of the fall. We shouldn’t suspect because we are part of house churches, that religious pride can’t creep in. Rather, because humans are involved and all humans are broken, we should expect pride to creep in, especially where God meets us powerfully, the lost are brought to Jesus, and disciples are made.
Jesus calls us away from understanding our relationship with Him by comparing ourselves to others and into a glorious freedom where we become aware of the goodness of God in the person of Jesus. Jesus becomes our standard and our sufficiency, so we find in Him that we are both horribly insufficient and yet gloriously sufficient because the cross and the resurrection. When we are truly set free in the love of God, we no longer have to live in comparison to others and pride withers and dies.
Friends, when we are loved by God and experience His love deeply, the opinions of others matter little to us. We can love people without fear of being less than them and without having to be better than them. Because we serve Jesus, none of this matters. What matters is that God has poured out His love in our hearts and we get to share it with others.
Photo Credit: Peacock by Jarod Carruthers
*No doubt I will get someone who writes a comment about how bad pride is within the traditional church and why this article is misplaced. Let’s make sure we pull the log out of our eye before we offer to take the speck out of someone else’s eye (Matthew 7:3).
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Pursuing Glory 