Guts Over Fear

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My apologies.

I found out over the last couple of days that in many ways, I’ve embraced fear. I haven’t been living afraid. I haven’t been up at night worrying. I’ve just been careful because I was worried about messing up.

Some of it has been on the job. Some of it has been in other areas of my life. But much of it was here.  I’ve got a stack of topics worth writing about for 30 days or better, but most of them seem like the kind of blogs that need a lot of explanation not to offend people. And so my dusty stack of topics to cover is going unattended.

It’s just weird. I started blogging daily to attack the fear of showing up, the fear of having nothing to say, the fear of being misunderstood. But somewhere along the way, the routine of writing daily lulled me a little bit out of writing about things that matter. I don’t regret what was written. I just regret not leaning in against the resistance in my own soul. And for that, I am sorry.

We all deserve someone in our lives who challenges us to do the hard things. I hoped to be that guy. Lately, I’ve not been doing that in my own life and that makes it tough for me to challenge you as well.

So I’m hitting the reset button. Maybe you’ll see more blogs with less context. Maybe I’ll just talk about the stuff I love with all the passion I can muster. But my hope is to lean into the places where there’s fear and challenge fear’s right to limit me and you.

I think we’ll be better for it.

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About traviskolder

Travis Kolder is a follower of Jesus, a husband, a father of five, an organic church planter, and a writer. He lives in Cedar Rapids, Iowa, where he serves as part of the Cedar Rapids House Church Network.

4 responses to “Guts Over Fear”

  1. Renard Moreau says :

    [ Smiles ] Battle your fear and plan out the content for your blog.

    Stop overthinking and learn to relax.

  2. Fanning the flame says :

    Yes..lately..ive been dealing with that. But..instead of blogging..ive been periscoping. And I have felt things have needed to be said..but many are not willing..bc of fear. Of which, I was guilty of too. But..like you..i too have hit a “reset button”. If I feel God wants me to address something..and no matter how much I don’t want to..and fight him..if it’s that strong of a passion..im going to address it. Thank you for being the encouraging words to me.

    Not sure if this was entirely what you meant. ☺

  3. gunnarlarmstrong says :

    I have enjoyed your column, and appreciate the thought that goes into them. I do look forward to what you have to say. As Eccesiastes says, there is a time to speak and a time to be silent. I will pray that you have the wisdom to know when to write and when it is better to leave something unsaid. Gunnar

  4. godly sexuality says :

    “f I mention I’m a servant of God, some will say they aren’t servants, they’re friends. If I say I’m a friend of God, some will say they’re not friends, they’re sons. If I say I’m a son of God, some will say they are not sons, they are part of the bride of Christ. If I say I’m a part of the bride of Christ, some will say they are not, they are a part of the body of Christ on earth. Each point can be successfully argued from scripture. The error is not theological. It is in the heart – it’s the inability to recognize and value the lesson another is learning in Christ. The insecure often find their security in having an opinion that differs from others.”
    Bill Johnson

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