Humility (Thirty Days To Greater Fruitfulness, Day 10)
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Today was one of those days that takes everything out of you. Nothing went according to plan, everything was rush, rush, rush, and by the time the end of the day rolled around I still hadn’t spent my 30 minutes listening to what the Lord had to say. On top of all of that, by 10:00 A.M. this morning of one the issues I mentioned in an earlier post became significantly more difficult than it already was. So I spent the entire day stewing on the issue with no resolution. I was emotionally drained and physically spent.
You can imagine, then, that by the time 11:25 P.M. rolled around and I went to sit down and listen, that I wasn’t expecting much. At best–tired, quiet prayer; at worst–falling asleep and waking up half-way through the night, only to feel guilty as I drug myself to bed. But what actually happened was really surprising.
I sat down in the sun room off the front of my house and I just laid my whole entire day in front of Jesus. I especially laid the whole situation that had been causing me grief all day and totally admitted that I had no idea how to fix the situation. As I sat there and listened I knew that I was entering into a holy moment that was somehow intended for this 3o Day experiment. For the first time in a long time I was able to see that I had absolutely no idea how to deal with the situation in front of me and that I was absolutely helpless to fix it myself. I also began to see how so many of my ideas that I typically would use to fix this sort of thing are just that: my ideas, nothing more, nothing less.
I can’t explain it to you in words, but a holy freedom and clear, crisp humility gripped my soul for the first time in a long time. I had become dependent on God, probably for the first time in a while. And as I had, I began to sense the pleasure of the Lord. Shortly thereafter there was a flood of revelation that poured into me from the Holy Spirit. He gave me intercession for our house church. He gave me revelation about the condition of a friend’s heart that helped me pray for my friend. He gave me a prophetic word for another friend and directions on how to deliver it. It was the most satisfying time of prayer that I’ve had since I started.
But all of this came when I became totally convinced that I could not solve anything on my own. In a lot of ways, the whole encounter felt like the Lord was very kindly breaking my hip (Genesis 32:25-35). My encouragement to you, if you’re joining me, is to find this place of humility before the Lord. Become convinced that you can no longer produce anything on your own. In a lot of ways, if this is the only fruit that comes from this 30 Days, it will have been more than worth it.
Has the Lord shown you the value of humility through this experiment? How did He bring you there? Leave a comment in the comment section and let us know.
Join us on the “Thirty Days to Greater Fruitfulness” experiment. For the rest of September we are spending 30 minutes in silent prayer listening to Jesus and then acting on what He asks us to do. Then we blog about the changes that are occurring in our lives through the marriage of listening and obedience. It’s not too late. If you’re just checking out that experiment feel free to jump in. And if you want more information, you can check it out here.